basically everything at work has been flipped upside down and turned around all crazy. it's like musical chairs, actually. people have no idea how scandalous and juicy the food industry can be. oh what would rachel kramer bussel say about this?
plus, in the midst of all the insanity at work i went through some terrible deep dark i'll never be happy or love again depression that was not so fun. every morning i'd wake up thinking my life was pointless and everything i was about to do at work would be completely futile, but still manage to be the first one there anywhere between 6 and 7:30. and i am not a morning person. the bed became the pit of despair.
but back to work! it is a wild and crazy place to be these days, and i'm not really happy there anymore. my friend/chef/mentor is gone and has been replaced with a mute fucktard. i spend a lot of time talking shit with my one friend there and whistling along to songs or singing along to modest mouse. when i get pissed off at the mute i listen to css really loud and rock out while playing catch up. but usually we listen to internet radio and one day that too will be gone.
im pretty miserable with all the changes that have been made, but i don't regret being there. if i hadn't taken this job i would've stayed at the hotel forever and nothing good could come from that. i think of the people still there and how they're perfectly content waiting the days out till they get knocked up, going day by day, never showing any initiative, just letting everything pass them by. it's depressing to think the majority of my time would be spent in that gray tiled flourescent lit hellhole. i grew tired of all the corporate bullshit. i didn't want to sit through another meeting about how we had to get all our diamonds. no more big team member rallies.
basically, i'm ready for my next big thing. i may have only been at this place for six months, but i learned a lot more than i did in my 3+ years at the hotel.
i hate the "that's business" mentality and the absolute fakeness of some people.
we're going to colorado for a few days and hopefully that will help somehow. i'm very curious how things will go while i'm gone. oh the excitement...